I find that I cannot easily pretend to be all nice and happy when just
about everything that comes in my way at this point is not right and is
pissing me off big time. Pretending gets tiring after a while and on top
of that, it just feels like as if I’m faking and cheating through my own
life. I can distract my thoughts all I want but at the end of it, things
aren’t any better off anyway ‘cos they’re still there. If I had my way, I
would like to get to the root cause of it and have it taken care of
altogether but unfortunately it’s something that I have no direct
control over.

God certainly has a funny sense of timing too when it comes to these
things, but that’s Him. My tolerance level is certainly going to be tested
indeed in this holy month of Ramadhan.

Listening to: Limp Bizkit – Counterfeit